What is the chief end?

A busy season has called me away from the computer, though I long to share photographs and strings of words. I have carried heavy thoughts these two months and watched bits of life through my camera lens.

Tonight, I wonder if I should continue with my postings. What is their purpose? To talk about myself? To put my heart and family on display? What is gained by a few meandering paragraphs? I did not grow up in the church or in tradition, so imagine my surprise to hear the words of a catechism spring into mind: What is the chief end of man? To glorify God and to enjoy Him forever.

If I continue with my varied thoughts, I hope the result is sincere praise and thanksgiving to our God. I feel like a pilgrim, groping through the shadows, waiting and listening for direction. This mama stuff is hard and I fall so often. Fear entangles me daily and I am weak from trying to throw it all off. The Lord gently leads me with His Spirit and His Word, but I linger in distraction and arithmetic.

But Creation around me sings His praise and sometimes I see it. He redeemed me and that's no small thing. I could post that news every day and it should never get old. When I acknowledge His patient work in my heart or in my family, isn't that praise?

Is God glorified by these words of mine spilled on the page? If not, then I should be done with it. Push delete and don't look back. Some prayer is in order I think. If you read this, would you join me?